Fate or Destiny?

Leaning against the window, he glanced out against the distant horizon. It was 4 in the morning. He couldnt sleep. The only thing that was on his mind was Her. All he could do was think. Think about the memories they shared.

Tears started trickling down his face. The pain was hard to bear. It wasn't just him but everyone close to her felt that intense feeling of remorse. But to him, it hit him the hardest.

He started to recall the first day she transferred to his school. She looked adorable but utterly clueless. But there was something about her that made him go nuts. Something, he couldnt really understand. Not yet anyway.

He, being his usual friendly self greeted her. She smiled shyly as a sign of acknowledgment blushing, slightly. From that day on, they we're to be best friends.

They did everything together. They shared laughs and smiles. They shared everything with each other. They spent their childhood together. They grew up together. Even though they both knew everything about each other, there was one thing that he never told her. For you see, from the moment he set his eyes upon her, he was in love with her.

He knew from the bottom of his heart that she was the one for him ,yet not wanting to jeopardize their relationship, he never told her. She on the other hand, was hoping that he might tell her.

As years went on, she was different. No longer was she that girl with the pony tails that use to cry when she fell down. She matured into a beautiful young woman. He's feelings for her grew even more yet he tried his best not to think about it. He thought that it could never work out.

On one faithful day, he brought her up to the hill overlooking their neighborhood. They sat there together thinking of how long they've knew each other. They remembered all the times they spent their days together. They sat there together watching as the sun set.

It was a beautiful night that night, the stars were shining brightly and the moon lit their surroundings. He thought to himself how beautiful she was under the moonlight. He really wanted to tell her at that time, just how he felt. But just as he was about to she got a call.
It was from her parents and she needed to get home. He brought her back home without telling her. Just as she was about to leave the car, she gave him a gentle kiss goodbye.

She called him a few days later to meet up. It was raining heavily so she came over to his house and the hanged out. The talked and talked for hours. He didnt know what was going to happen.
After awhile, she left. She hugged him with tears flowing in her eyes. He asked why. But she just smiled and left.

She was absent from school for the next few days. He got worried and called up her cell. No answer. Suddenly, he received a call. He got word that she had died from cancer. He just froze. He couldnt control the sudden emotion that overwhelmed him. He just fell down to his knees. Tearing uncontrollably.

He went home. In tears. Thinking to himself. If only he had told her sooner. Then as he reached into one of his jacket pockets he found a note. Apparently she left it there for him when she hugged him. It wrote..

Since you are reading this I think you would have already known. I wish I could spend more time with you. But I don't have alot of time. I didn't tell you this but when I went for a checkup I found out that I was going to die very soon. The tumor in my brain was at its most potent stage. There was nothing anyone could do. I had just a few months left to live. I wanted so badly to tell you but I couldnt bear the pain.

I'm so sorry.

But I all I really wanted to tell you was that I loved you. So much. I want so much to be with you, to hold you, to keep you warm. But I know I cant. This is probably the last your hear of me. Take care of yourself and remember. I'll always be with you. In our memories and in your heart.


He couldn't believe what he had just read. He loved her so much, but he didnt tell her. He wished he had. But it was to late. All he could do now was to think of her. He missed her so much.
If only he had said it sooner.

You only start to miss someone when their gone.


NOTE: This is another work of fiction. I like writing. Though i have to improve it. Hope you enjoyed reading it :)


kenwooi said...

sounds like an real life experience from the author..
or maybe he's good.. =)


Justin McMuffin said...

Thanks man. :)