Life's commitments will catch up to us. Eventually.

Sitting down as the world goes by. Listening to the melodious piano sonatas of Yiruma. Leaning by my bedside window thinking about life post-SPM.

Yes, the era of high school life is slipping by my fingers without me even knowing it. Before I can even grasp and embrace life as it is. Its gone. People will only miss things when they're gone. But by then, it'll be too late.


Instead of looking forward for college and a car and being all grown up I actually just wanna enjoy being a teenager where you can afford screw ups. I mean. Honestly speaking, were not as independent as we think. We still rely on our parents for stuff. As much as I want freedom. I cant imagine my life without my parents which plays a crucial role in my journey to adulthood.


They're not superhuman I know. They make mistakes too. At least, what ever mistakes that I think is inappropriate or can be solved through a different method I can. Like in the future when its my turn to be a parent.


Scary, isn't it? The thought itself of growing up is daunting. Why can't it all be like Neverland? We stay young forever. Though eventually that would be boring. I guess its a part of life. Experiencing new things. Exploring different horizons.

"All the world's a stage,
And all the men and women merely players;
They have their exits and their entrances;
And one man in his time plays many parts,

From Shakespeare's All The World's a Stage

It couldn't be more true.

Maybe I just want the world to stop. Just for a moment. So that I can appreciate everyone. Everything. Before its too late.

My family, My friends. The pillars of my foundation.


Slowly. Everything will be gone and the only thing left will be time we spent together and the memories that we had. Its like a group picture which is constantly fading away. One by one. Someone just disappears from it. Until all that's left is

Me.



-J