Well, he was right.
I seriously lost my mood to do everything. I was supposed to read up on my lecture notes today and my assignments for Thursday but I can't even focus to do anything. I'm just so devastated with my shit results. I should have put in more effort.
It's not so much of my future that is making me depressed, it's that the people who supported you and was rooting for you all the way that I'm so sad about. The look of disappointment from their faces is just unbearable. I'm so sorry, to my parents, family and my teachers. Especially Mr. Balvir who put in God knows how much effort for us last year.
I mean, I know I wasn't gonna get good results but I didn't expect it to be THIS bad. Like, no one did actually. Thankfully I wasn't the only one. But then again, there's always light at the end of the tunnel.
I guess it's pretty true what Jon said and for that I have no regrets. A piece of paper doesn't dictate our future, at least not SPM. I was just thinking, if how all of this played out different. How if I didn't meet these bunch of wonderful people in my life and how that would have altered my journey in life.
"Your grandchildren wouldn't ask about your SPM results, they'll most probably ask about the friends you made and the crazy stuff you did. They wouldn't ask about what you did in the library"
- Jon Chua
We might not have the best of results like some of you out there but at least we have each other. We might have played a lot and slacked off here and there but damn was those last two years good.
How many people can say that they have what we have?
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